The space of all possible human expression is very vast, I do not believe that everything has already been made. One should seek the ability to enjoy almost any artistic expression, to find beauty anywhere. It's tragic, these people, who see only the flaws, and focus on the ugly only. Which isn't to say that one should be oblivious to flaw. Instead, soberly acknowledge it exists, but don't seek it, seek beauty instead. Replicate it. You should develop yourself additively. Don't stop enjoying something to enjoy something else instead. Like deciding that your taste used to be bad, but now it's good because what you used to think was good you no longer think is good. What you used to like was naive, but there is beauty in naivete. It's the beauty of a world which is pure of heart, uncorrupted, content with itself. (Of course, if something you used to enjoy bore a negative energy that affected you as such, it is then good to detach from) thinking about dissociative identity, and i remembered a scene i lived as a teen, in which i, through tears, confessed to my mother about some of my mental struggles. i told her that in my head i'd keep speaking in terms of "we", and how i felt like there was two of me, one of which only existed to belittle and negatively judge the rest of me it doesnt feel quite that strong anymore, but it's still somewhat there, the speaking to myself in judgemental fashion, then the other half responding to be left alone, crying "lies!" to the self-insults i suppose that DID is just this mental phenomena, but overgrown out of control, like a tumor